Cute, but fat.

Bunny is my nick name, so I often use ‘bunny’ in a lot of references.

It just dawned on me that for the last 6 months I have been maintaining my weight.  I thought I had reached a plataeu of sorts, but after much thought I’ve come to the realization, that I am eating the same foods day after day, not changing the amounts, thus I have developed a maintenance mode.

DUH! 

Sheesh, to start losing again I need to decrease my calorie intake daily.  I am making that a goal this week.  To alter my food intake so I can lose at the very least a pound this week. 

Maybe soon I’ll graduate from dumb bunny….to…ummm…Playboy bunny. 

Do you ever sabotage your own journey?  Willfully knowing you will only put yourself in harm’s way. 

I DO I DO I DO! 

I know my trigger foods and yet I buy and have them accessible to me. Tempting me at every move. 

I ask myself why do I set myself up for failure??  I think it’s a safety net sort of mindset.  Kind of like if I don’t have that special treat in the house that somehow I will starve.

What a nutty thought, huh!  I could certainly survive without a HUGE bag of M&M’s starring me in the face.

I am the person who does the marketing, thus making me solely responsible for what I buy and bring home.

I want to let go of the ‘crutch’ of bad food.  I used to stock pile unhealthy foods in the cupboard for a ‘just in case’ day.  I know longer do that, but I do have a bag or two of M&M’s on standby. No, not the little itty bags either….the great big suckers! hee hee

I am a work in progress…..

I haven’t written for a few days!  I missed it too.

Life has begun again for me.  Yesterday was the first day of school so I can return to a somewhat productive day.  Which mostly includes exercising, errands and housework.

I just posted a question under the support forum about how often people weigh themselves.  I religiously weigh myself once a week and if the scale balloons up it pretty much dictates my day.  Nevertheless, I always weigh myself even when I have not eaten well. I want to be responsible for my choices and not avoid the reality.

I often wonder how some people can weigh only once a month. That would drive me batty.  How do they know they are losing weight if they are not stepping on the scale weekly?  I know myself too well that if I only weighed once a month I would think in my mind that it gives me a whole month to eat what I want and not think about the scale. 

I’ve read so many views on how often to step on the scale.  I applaud those who can mindfully still lose weight without the temptation of the scale.  I’ve yet to get there.

The numbers the glare at me when my white size 8 Wide feet plop on the scale are deafening sometimes.  Unless I lose, then it’s a sigh of relief.

One mini goal I would love to have is too not let the scale numbers take over my life.  I can feel very bad if the scale goes up, even if I am following my routine to a “T”. 

Scale blues for sure…..

Today I took my son to a little apple orchard that happens to have a nice pond and some ducks.  They sell duck food so we bought some and fed the ducks. Ooh…I so enjoy doing this!  I am an animal lover and I just get a kick out of watching those ducks bee line for the food.  Luckily, they don’t have to watch their figure! 

I am all twitter that summer is winding down.  I know I am in the minority here, but something about the beginning of school and what’s to come next is so exciting to me.  I bet I will change my tune come mid December and there is a foot of snow on the ground.  That’s the price for living in New Hampshire.

Quack Quack

all covered with cheese….now doesn’t that sound delish!

Haven’t blogged for a few days as nothing really has been going on that I felt was interesting enough to write about. I could go on and on about my looming TOM, but I’ve done that countless times before.

School begins next Wednesday…oh yes!

I bought some mums yesterday and that will be the extent of my autumn decorating. hee hee. Oh, I might buy a pumpkin or two and maybe a few ears of Indian Corn.  Naturally, the squirrels and chipmunks seem to delight in that.

I guess the old addage holds true: No news, is good news!  So with that…

ta ta for now…

I’ve written other blog entries on this subject, but sometimes life makes you go ‘huh’?

When you think you have it all figured out then sometimes it just falls apart before your eyes.

What to do?? Cry?  Scream? Pick up the pieces and move on??  YES YES YES!  I am a girl who sees things in a glass half full type of way. I believe there is always lessons to be learned in life.  My personal belief is such that I believe in fate, and ‘things’ happen for a reason.

So with that mindset I move on. Taking what I can from previous experiences and hopefully have learned something to make myself grow or in the very least have compassion.

Never give up. 

When I began this healthy (mind, body, spirit) journey in February 2007 I promised myself I would never give up.  If I ‘fell off the wagon’ so to speak, that did not give me free reign to quit all my hard work.  If I missed a few days of exercising it did not mean I would resort to my former couch potato days.  It meant I would continue my journey, but realize sometimes ‘life’ gets in the way.  So in my previous attempts at losing weight if life got in my way, I just caved in and gave up trying all together. Luckily, this time around with my new mindset I acknowledge that yes, sometimes life does get in the way, but I’ve learned how to adjust and go on.  That is one thing that I am the most proud of.  I realize that a day or two of not eating well or a few missed days of exercising isn’t going to make me fall back to my old ways.  That to me has lifted such a HUGE burden off my shoulders.  If the scale isn’t nice to me and shows I have gained 1, 2 or even more pounds I do not give up.  I take control, re-adjust my diet/exercise and march on!

This week is a perfect example of my motto needing to be in place firming.  TOM  is beginning and life was my week filled with odds and ends.  So knowing that, I am prepared to miss a few exercise times as well as maybe not eating as healthy.  I also know especially with TOM the scale in undoubtedly go up uP UP!  That’s okay I tell myself.  It’s not me giving up, it’s life happening.

hear me roar…..ready….here I go……ROAR!!!   I am roaring that it’s my TOM again and I feel icky!  I really don’t growl, I purr more like a kitten.

Anyway TOM always seems to put a damper on my mood as well as my eating/exercising plan.   Doesn’t matter what I do to tweak my exercise and eating the scale will always go up.  I do not eat a high sodium diet and I drink billions of gallons of water daily, so when I weigh in and if the scale happens to go up, it will be reflective of my body being a woman.

I didn’t even exercise today!  Though, the day is far from over maybe I can whirl up enough strength to do an exercise DVD.

Aah…the Perils of my Period!

Ooh…remember The Banana Splits TV Show!  I just downloaded the theme song and it’s put me in a fun mood! 

I’m having a hard time accessing this blog.  Apparently after the recent upgrade all isn’t back to the way it was before. 

What a beautiful Sunday here in NH!  Sunny, a bit humid, but very bearable!  Went rummaging this morning and found some nifty vintage items. A Bugaloos Metal Lunchbox, a Barbie and Ken Coloring Book 1962, a few old TV Guides and the most prized possession….drum roll please…..a 1945 Modern Screen Magazine with none other than Dana Andrews on the cover. He is dreamy…..

until the first day of school. Let’s see….exactly 11 days!  Can you say…Hip Hip Hooray! hee hee

I don’t think I’ll ever really grasp this dieting thing.  Some weeks I gain, some weeks I lose, but I am consistently doing the same exact thing week after week.  Two weeks ago I lost 3 pounds….last week I gained 3 pounds and today I lost 2.5 pounds. huh?  Not complaining, I just don’t get it!

What an incredibly beautiful day here in New Hampshire. Sunny and low humidity is on tap for today.  I can’t believe we are in embarking on the last month of summer.  Can you say Halloween candy??  This morning while at the market lo and behold a Halloween candy area is already set up ready to go.  Why is it that M&M’s (my vice) taste so good in holiday colors? hee hee.  Why is it that a Reece’s peanut butter cup taste heavenly shaped like a pumpkin? hee hee

The challenge of holiday eating isn’t too far off. 

WIth that said I wish everyone a happy and healthy Saturday!