Never will be ‘good enough’….
The image of myself is very distorted. I read what the scale says, I look at my accumulated weight loss and I still see a very FAT woman in the mirror staring back at me. The message I keep replaying in my mind is: Men like skinny chicks. Sheesh, I’ll never have a chance then. What is skinny by the way???? Who determines the barometer for skinny?? What happened to all the chubby chasers of the world??? My self worth is at an all time low. Apparently I am not worthy enough to get a man (if I wanted one to begin with) unless I am reed thin. The more I lose, the more I am unhappy. At least when I was heavier it didn’t even cross my mind that men only like thin women. This recent weight loss journey is for ME!!! Other times I’ve lost weight it was to please someone else. Instead of enjoying the ride I am beating myself up inside because I am not good enough as just me.
Those seem like very serious issues that you should talk to a professional about. You might be getting physically healthy, but if you aren’t emotionally healthy, as well, what’s the point.
As a girl with several very good guy friends and guy roomates, I can tell you that not all men like skinny women, in fact most guys I know see the women in magazines as too skinny or a fantasy that in reality would not be all that pretty.