Sigh….this entry will be nothing but ramblings on TOM! Time of Month…sheesh, just hearing it bloats me up! I am 43 years old (gulp) and have had the monthly visitor since I was 10 years old. OMG!! 33 years of this nonsense! I have a very low sodium diet and drink enough water to float Noah’s Ark. I exercise daily, sometimes twice a day. It’s not my diet making me feel icky, it’s just the hormonal change going on. UGH!
Thanks for letting me ramble….
in an imperfect world! I am my own worse enemy. I often let myself down if I don’t eat healthy and exercise daily. I very seldom give myself a ‘free pass’ if I over indulge in food or if I miss a day of activity. I certainly over ate today, yet I exercised twice. Still, all I can think about is the over eating. In fact, I carry the perfection angle in all areas of my life, not just in the health area. For some reason I find that I need to be ‘perfect’ for ’someone’. Funny thing is I don’t have a clue who that someone is.
I’m still overweight. Sigh…..
Guess losing 50+ pounds and being under 140 pounds still is considered FAT!!!!
The humidity is gone! Not for good, but it sure feels wonderful outside. Took a nice 3 mile walk. It is easier to walk when the air isn’t saturated with moisture.
My time of month is due any minute. Bummer. Last month I gained 3pounds, it took me a month to lose it. Nuts!
It seems I have two super weeks of eating healthy, feeling great and exercising. When the (TOM) looms all bets are off!
Such a wonderful weather day. Sun is out, not much humidity in the air. Delightful. Now let’s bottle this and bring it out in the dark of winter.
Summer seems to be slipping away so fast.
Nothing last forever…..
When I miss a day of exercise I feel incredibly guilty! Which is very ironic, since I really don’t like exercising. I try my utmost to exercise at least ONCE every day, trying for multiple times in a day if I can. On the rare occasion when I am not able to exercise then I go into automatic guilt mode. Somehow my silly mind thinks if somehow I miss a day or even two of exercising I will gain all the weight back overnight.
Stupid, I know.
Yep, you heard me right. Son of a beach! I took my son to the beach today, silly! I might add it was my first time wearing a bathing suit to the beach. That in itself deserves and entire blog entry. It’s a very nice family oriented beach. It wasn’t over run with size ZERO babes flaunting their tiny bodies! There were real women there wearing whatever they felt comfortable in and most importantly having fun with the family. I never thought I would wear a bathing suit to a beach ever in my life. Last year I wore shorts! It wasn’t a itsy bitsy teeny weeny yellow polka dot bikini. It was cute nonethless and it covered up all the challenges I have.
August will be here soon enough and summer will pass. More trips to the beach are ahead. When summer is done I won’t be hanging up my swimsuit. I am going to sign up for swim class at the local YMCA! I’ll give those size ZERO bodies something to look at! hee hee
for now at least. More rain could be here by tomorrow. I will enjoy today and not even worry about tomorrow! I learned a tip from a friend, he said to me “Live in the moment”! I’ve taken that to heart and over the last 15+ months I have indeed lived for today. It’s made a huge difference in my life. I am not all worked up about ‘what-if’s’ or the thought of living in fear. I believe this has helped with my healthy journey. I’m not perfect, I sometimes do think ahead and ‘worry’ about different things. But, for the most part, I am living for today.
Luckily, I am not a jealous person. I do have envy sometimes. I envy those people who don’t have any weight issues. I envy people who eat to live, not live to eat. I envy people who can finish a meal and not be thinking of the next meal ahead. I envy people who don’t use holidays for a time to inhale food like there won’t ever be a Christmas again. Mostly, I envy people who are comfortable in their skin, no matter what size.
Well, not exactly singing, walking is more like it. I did a full 2.8 mile walk in the pouring rain. Rain doesn’t scare me! hee hee. I could have opted out and bee-lined home, but no I stuck with it. Once home I was soaked to the bone. But, at least I walked. And most importantly, I didn’t melt! hee hee
