It’s all up to me

This isn’t going to be one of those blogs where I talk about how I’m thankful for my family, my health, etc.  I am thankful for those things but my morning hasn’t gone well so I’m going to be grouchy.  One of my favorite tv shows is “Rescue Me” with Dennis Leary so if you’re familiar w/his sense of humor you can guess how this is going to go.  If not, hang on.

It all started w/waking up at 4:45.  What???  I was going to take the day off from exercise and sleep as long as I could but I heard the baby.  There was no way I was ready to get up so I repositioned him and crawled back into bed.  Every few seconds, though, I kept hearing a noise.  When he had his big seizure he made weird noises like that so I watched him in the video monitor but he was asleep.  I got back into bed but kept hearing the same noise.  This time I cracked his door and peeked in there but nope, sleeping like a baby.  But when I got back in bed AGAIN I still heard the noise.  I finally realized it was my own freakin’ nose.  Somehow it was whistling when I would breathe but I didn’t know it was me.  Grrrrr

Then I couldn’t get back to bed so I got up and stepped on the scale.  Why did I even bother.  Somehow since Sunday I have gained 3.5 pounds.  Now, I haven’t been perfect this week but I haven’t been bad, either.  I have gotten up at 4:00 every morning this week and on Monday and Wednesday I worked out twice, trying to counteract the extra calories I’ll pile in today.  And how does my body repay me, gaining weight.  I’m going to try to bitch about it here and then let it go b/c I know it’s not true weight, it’s some water weight, tension, whatever, but I’m still pissed.  If I knew that I wouldn’t go crazy I would honestly put the scale away for a month and just focus on eating healthy and working out but I know that I would start adding an extra bite here, an extra helping there and then the weight gain would be for real.  Why can’t it just be about exercise???  If I could eat what I wanted and just workout a ton I would be thrilled.  But since I can’t change the way it works I just have to hang in there.

I guess I am thankful, though, that there were no small children around when I weighed myself this morning.  I think my five-year old’s eyes would have been big as saucers when he heard the words coming out of my mouth.  Why does swearing make us feel better????

Anyway, since I was up I decided to lift weights w/my FIRM DVD.  It has an express option that I have never used before, but it hit all of the body parts in 25 minutes.  Then I added some pushups and one segment that the DVD cut out that really works my arms.  I’ll have to remember this option for when I don’t have a lot of time.

Here’s hoping you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving if you’re in the states and have a wonderful Thursday if you’re not.

Progress toward workout goal:  112/250