Duh!

Who’s the dumbass who does a great job all week and then overeats the day BEFORE she’s going to weight in????  It’s me, it’s me!  What was I thinking?  I was cruising along just fine yesterday and then it was time for my afternoon snack.  I was hungry for cheese and crackers but didn’t think we had the cheese I liked so I settled for apples and peanut butter.  Then I found the cheese in the fridge, after I had downed several Tootsie Rolls dipped in peanut butter.  I don’t even like Tootsie Rolls.  Anyway, I then ate the rest of the cheese and crackers.  To try to counteract things, I decided to cut the grass last night instead of today, hoping to burn a few extra calories.

So this morning I was at 247.5 which is a 1 pound loss from last week.  Based on my behavior yesterday and Thursday night (4-100 calorie size Kudos bars) I’m pretty happy w/any loss.  Plus, I’m getting close to TOM so I’m inching up on the water weight gain. 

So far this morning I have done 35 minutes of Pilates.  I need to do this more often, I forget how much it works your muscles.

Now I’m just waiting to hear from my oldest sister about her conversation w/another sister (see yesterday’s blog if you don’t know what I’m talking about and want to know).  I plead to all of you w/children, please raise your sons so that they don’t think it’s ok to threaten and intimidate others, and raise your daughters so that they have enough confidence in themselves to leave a dangerous situation and never look back.

Progress toward workout goal:  58/250

7 Comments so far

  1. patty on September 21st, 2008

    Congratulations on the loss, Brandie! You might not be thrilled but a pound is a pound!

    I’ve had trouble with bingeing lately, too. It’s been a crazy week and I’ve been eating all kinds of junk. This is going to take some thought and planning to figure out why. We’ll work through it!

    I hope your sister comes to her senses. How long has she been with this loser?

    I thought I raised two strong, independent sons who wouldn’t even think of using physical violence and then my youngest hooked up with a bi-polar woman who occasionally loses it and attacks HIM. I can’t understand why he puts up with it. When she gets bad, she kicks and scratches and slaps and he just tries to hold her down which just makes her that much more angry.

    One time, he actually did call the police after she kicked him between the legs and scratched his face. After he called them, she sat down and cried and begged him to forgive her and, when the police got there, that’s what they saw. A beautiful young woman crying and telling them they had had an argument and he grabbed her and held her down and she kicked and scratched him while trying to get loose. The police took him outside and said, “You’re a big, tough guy. You don’t look to0 damaged to me and you have no right to hold her down.” He was so humiliated, he never called them again. Sometimes we forget that men can be abused as well as women.

  2. exerciseisfree on September 21st, 2008

    Whoo hoo–congrats on the pound gone bye bey Brandie! One pound is a big deal to me, so I think that’s great. I agree that Pilates is a great form of exercise. I used to have the Pilates Reformer and really miss it now. Would love to have the Total Gym which is similar and maybe better even.

    I read your reply, and YW. I was and am very proud that I walked away from my situation and never looked back. Haven’t seen his miserable face for 18 years, and I now know about the red flags so history doesn’t repeat itself. Met a great man and have been very happily married since. I don’t put up with a lot of bull from anyone anymore either. Hard part was loving myself again and rebuilding my self esteem, and believing again that I was a worthwhile person. Abusers don’t typically start out hitting in my experiences. They tear you down verbally piece by piece until you feel like a big fat zero and make you think you can’t do any better and nobody would have you. I was a zero alright, a size 0. I was so nervous and scared all the time that I couldn’t eat and really was that small at 5 feet 7 inches.

    Like Patty mentioned, men get abused too and cops make them feel less than for reporting it which is why we seldom do hear about it. I hope that situation improves too Patty. Have a bipolar girl across the street who did those same things, and when he left her recently, she lost it totally and ran over him three times with her SUV. Your son’s wife/girlfriend needs medication which I’m sure you know.

    B, I get where you are coming from with what the kids are learning from watching their mom’s coping skills. I came from an abusive home and gravitated towards abusive men–seemed normal to me since it’s all I knew. My brothers turned out verbally and physically abusive toward women early on too. Kids do pick up on that stuff unfortunately.

    The good news is that something may click with you and sis talking to her. I was silent so nobody knew my situation. If I’d had people who cared and knew encouraging me and giving me strength, I probably would have made the break sooner. I’m now 1000 miles away and never looked back as mentioned, and I’m very happy too. I pray she’ll find that for herself and her children.

  3. Eileen2bLean on September 21st, 2008

    Congratulations on your weight loss and best wishes for the situation with your sister… I hope she comes around soon.

  4. lillie on September 21st, 2008

    Congrats on being down a pound! Keep up the good work. I’m sorry to hear about your sister; been there-done that. Praying for protection and confidence for her and wisdom for the rest of you.

  5. runningbee on September 22nd, 2008

    I did have to laugh at the tootsie roll thing, I find myself stuffing my face with calories I don’t even like too. Congrats on the weight loss! I hope your sister lets you help her, its frustrating watching the ones we love made bad choices. Have a great week :)

  6. grabthebull on September 22nd, 2008

    wow. seems like your life is full of trials lately. extra kudos to you for not turning to chocolate cake considering!

    i sincerely hope your sis sees the light, and decides to leave the sorry p.o.s. i do believe people can change but that doesn’t mean you have to accept them back into your life during the process. and they certainly can’t change overnight!

    keep us up to date on everything!

    kt

  7. katy2101 on September 22nd, 2008

    Hey,

    Thank you for the comment! What a great idea I’m definitely going to do that!

    I hope things with your sister do change. I’m not sure what the law is like in your area, and this is an extreme case scenario fix but it might help to consider. In some places you can go through the social services to perform an intervention if the childrens’ lives are threatened. The family would need to be visited, and may just get a social worker assigned to them, but there is a possibility the children would be taken out of the home if SS thought it warrented it.

    I’m sorry that that is a horrible to thing to consider, even suggest, but it might mean you have the ability to help your sister if she feels her childrens’ lives are at risk, but can’t deal with it herself.

    Needless to say, I hope it never comes to that! And as others have said, I think you’ve done remarkably well so far - I’d have been eating like crazy in this situation so well done.

    Good luck x

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