One step forward…
…you know the rest. Here we are, the 1st day after another weekend where I made poor choices. Too much food, too little exercise, eating for the sake of eating; the same old song and dance. Apparently I don’t want to be thin and healthy enough to make the right choices all of the time. I say I want it, but my actions speak to the contrary. Until I figure out how to make myself want it enough, I’m going to quit complaining about my choices. And if I’m being honest, it’s not 1 step forward and 2 steps back; it’s more like 2 steps forward and 1 step back. Looking at it that way, I’m still making progress, just not as quickly as I would like. Until I’m ready and willing to put in the effort I can’t expect to achieve fantastic results.
On a different note, thanks for the comments about the problem with my friend. I think I just needed validation that I had put in enough effort and that I had attoned for my “sins”. Now a new drama has entered my life, my SIL. This is the same SIL who used to avoid answering her phone on snow days so she didn’t have to watch our kids. Her divorce is finally settled and the plan was that they would pay us the $6K that they owe us out of that money, we found out last night that she has no intention of paying us. Of course we have no documentation of any of the money we lent them b/c she was my hubby’s sister who had always been upstanding and honest. We’re still making her car payment, for goodness sake! And we can’t stop making it b/c the loan is in our name, not hers. If I were her I don’t know how I would sleep at night, refusing to pay back money that I owed my brother and his family. We’ll make it through the money part, but I just feel awful for my hubby b/c one by one, the members of his family are turning into idiots and completely disappointing him.
Tonight I plan to hit the gym after school for an abbreviated workout, maybe 30 mins on the bike. We have open house tonight at school and I don’t want to get too sweaty. Maybe if I stink a little bit the parents won’t hang out and talk for too long!!!
6:20 pm
I’m at school now preparing for open house. I do like meeting the parents but it makes for such a hectic evening, and then we’re back at it in the morning.
I went to the gym after school and ended up doing 30 minutes on the treadclimber. I was so sweaty after school today that it wasn’t going to matter what type of workout I did. And as we all know I’m addicted to the treadclimber. 550 calories, outta here!!
To answer a few questions from comments, we found out about my SIL not paying via my MIL. She does get things confused sometimes so my hubby is going to talk to his sister. He was dialing the phone as I left. I’m hoping we got the wrong info, when I find out more I’ll let you all know.
Progress toward workout goal: 39-250
hi there. i’m catching up on things after being gone (3 days of pain!) for 4 days.
i’m sorry to hear about your friend. it hurts when you feel like you give more than you get. i know how it feels, and i am sending you positive vibes ( ). trust me, she still cares for you and your family. it just sounds like she has a serious case of the “ME’s!” and it’s really hard to knock sense into a person like that.
don’t let a weekend put you down. or a string of bad weekends. we have to live our lives. the good news is that you actually realize you’re harming your body, and you can bounce right back, admit it, and move on! i bet the old you would continue to make bad choices throughout the week, regardless of how your weekend went. i know the old me did!
great job on sticking with it.
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Hi there,
I thought I’d visit your house since you posted at mine.
Came by to see what’s up, and I like your saying at the top of the board. We all make bad choices and aren’t perfect at this all the time, so give yourself a break and don’t let it snowball. Progress not perfection, right?
I put your link on my visit list on my blog so I can hop in and catch up. I’m new to this blogging stuff but will figure it all out in time.
Btw, hate to read about the SIL situation. How do people live with themselves is what I’d like to know. Have new neighbors who just ripped us off on a pool deal, which is nothing near the amount of you of course, but they hide in their house and avoid us daily over a lousy $100. We wrote them off as opportunists as it became obvious they were well-versed in taking advantage of others, and I’ve learned to put things in writing. It’s tough when family is involved though. You are in a real pickle. I’m a true believer that what goes around comes around, but I hope SIL wakes up and smells the coffee beans and does the right thing by you and hubby.
Stick to your guns and do that workout tonight! I’m forcing myself even though it’s the last thing I feel like doing today.
Make it a healthy day and keep on keeping on!!
Missy C
Hi Brandie!
Don’t put yourself down! Two steps forward and one step back is real progress! You’re steadily working toward your goal. One thing that helps me is to try to have “one perfect day”. Just one. I find that having one “Perfect” day behind me makes it easier to do another. Still, this is a lifestyle and life has a way of interfering with the best plans.
About that SIL…Crap! I hate that! You do what you can for them and they take advantage. I hope she does the right thing. I think you should have a heart to heart with her. You said you “found out” that she has not intention of paying you. How did you find out? Did you talk to her? I’d have a nice heart to heart and, if the talk doesn’t go well, I’d be getting that car from her!
Hi, Brandie. Don’t be too hard on yourself about the weekend. A little progress is better than no progress at all. Good job on exercising today! Just keep taking life one day at a time. It’s hard to remember that, though, when it feels like life is kicking you in the shins! Sorry about your SIL; what a mess. It’s a shame that the people that should care the most about us sometimes are the ones who abuse us the most. I’ll keep you in my thoughts. I hope your hubby’s talk with her goes well.