It’s all up to me

Thank you, thank you, thank you for all of the supportive comments.  I was overwhelmed when I logged on this morning and saw how many people had sent well wishes my way.  Even though we have never met, I consider all of you my friends.

Life is getting closer to being back to normal.  I got a great night’s sleep last night, from about 9 pm until 5:20 am when I had to get up to relieve the night nurse.  Kyle had been up for several hours overnight but he had just gone back to sleep so as soon as the nurse was driving off I scooted my butt back into bed and was able to sleep until about 7.  We took Kyle to the doc for a recheck and he said that things were sounding better but that the pneumonia was still definitely present in his lungs.  I’m supposed to call back into the office on Thursday and let them know how things are going; if there hasn’t been any improvement they’ll do another x-ray and see what’s going on.  I absolutely love our pediatrician, he’s one of the few people who really knows how hard we work to keep Kyle healthy and you can see the caring in his eyes whenever he talks to us.  It shouldn’t matter, b/c we do what we do for Kyle, not for praise.  But it’s nice to know that a doctor feels that the main reason that Kyle is still alive and doing as well as he’s doing is b/c of all of the hard work we put in.  OK, I’ll quit patting myself on the back, I must sound awfully full of myself.

After we got back from the office I headed to the gym and got in an hour on the bike.  My feet must be getting accustomed to the bike b/c they didn’t start to tingle until 30 minutes in to the workout.  One thing about the bike, though, I’m having trouble getting my heart into the target range for my age.  I’m 34 and for the 65% I should be at least in the 120’s and I’m generally 115 or so.  Does that make a huge difference?  I have increase the resistance, with little increase in heart rate.  My rpms are generally in the high 90’s, but I can’t maintain anything higher for a long period of time w/o feeling like a cartoon character.  I’m sweating but I’m not breathing as hard as I would if I was on the treadmill.  I’ll just have to keep adjusting the resistance higher and see if it does anything.

We leave for vacation a week from tomorrow and once we get back I only have 2 days until school resumes so I had better get my butt in gear.  I have a list a mile long that I want to finish before school starts and since it is hot as hell and humid today, I guess I’m going to tackle the inside projects first.  I’m hoping later I will have some time to catch up on what you all have been doing.

Progress toward workout goal:  22/250

I almost forgot…yesterday I took my older son shopping for school supplies.  He’s starting Kindergarten and since we leave for vacation in a week I figured we had better get his stuff now.  I looked like complete death warmed over (no sleep, no make-up, no shower, same clothes from the day before) you get the picture.  Who do I run into?  My ex-boyfriend!!  In 10 years of living in the same town we have never bumped into each other and I have to see him when I looked awful.  Plus, even though I have lost some weight I’m still about 25 pounds heavier than when we split up.  It really honestly doesn’t matter what he thought b/c I’m so glad we’re no longer together and I have one of the best hubbies around, but why couldn’t I have run into him when I was all dolled up?