It’s all up to me

OK, yesterday wasn’t my proudest moment, but it’s over so I’m not going to let it bother me anymore.  Today is a new day and I’m going to use it to get myself back on track.  I got a decent night of sleep and our regular nurse is coming today so I know that I’ll be able to get a workout.  Since I’m having my tubes tied today I’ll probably be under my calories so maybe yesterday will balance itself out.  And I should be back to normal tomorrow b/c I’m not having traditional surgery, it’s just an in-office procedure where they do everything through the opening that God provided.  The Dr. told me to expect just regular cramping and said I’d be able to resume regular activities on Friday.  I’m not going to lift weights on Friday as I normally would but I will get in a good, long, walk.

I’m trying to be a “look for the silver lining” kind of gal so maybe yesterday was a warning for me.  We have a family reunion this weekend and a lot of choices were up in the air.  One of those choices was do I take the boys and go to my parents’ house Friday night or just come down Saturday morning, pick them up and continue to the reunion.  I have decided to go down on Saturday for 2 reasons.  One, I will be more likely to get in a workout Saturday morning if I am home and two, I will be in control of my food Friday night and Saturday morning.  I’ll bring my lunch w/me to eat at their house and then do the best I can at the reunion.  That side of the family has lot of medical people (the host is a cardiac surgeon) so I know there should be at least a little bit of healthy food

On another front, I’m really tired of my hubby being sick.  I’m sure he is, too, but what I finally realized is that the reason it’s irritating me so much is that when he’s sick, he just gets to be sick.  I can pick up the slack.  When I’m sick, though, I have to coordinate help due to our situation with Kyle.  I remember when I was horribly sick with strep throat last spring and slept for about 3 days straight, I was on the phone with my mom, having her come up for a couple of nights to help with the kids.  And then on the 1/2 day I went to school, I was coordinating a schedule for people to come over and help with the kids b/c I knew it wasn’t safe for me to take care of them b/c I wasn’t strong enough.  He does the best he can and I don’t want to complain b/c I have one of the best husbands around, but he has one of the best wives around and I just wish he’d tell me that.

10:20

Yay, I got in my workout and now I feel like myself again.  What’s scary, though, is that after taking 1 day off I had to MAKE myself workout.  Usually I look forward to it and I had to force myself today.  Luckily I chose one of my alltime favorites which really got me going, so when it was time to get on the treadmill it was no big deal.  And what I’m noticing on the treadmill is that my endurance is so much greater during the running times.  I have 1 more week of my interval walking program and then I’m going to start C25K.  A quick question about that, during the running times how fast are you supposed to run?  I downloaded the program from the internet and it just gives a time and/or distance, and from what I could calculate it comes out to about 6 mph.  Is that right?

Progress toward goal:  13/250