It’s all up to me

We belong to Blockbuster online and one of the reasons I love it is b/c they have exercise DVD’s.  So when I’m getting bored of the ones I have or want to explore one before I buy it I can order one and it shows up in my mailbox.  I have just fallen in love with my latest.  It’s called Crunch:  Super Slimdown and it combines Yoga and Pilates.  The instructor is one I like (Ellen Barrett) and I was surprised that I was able to do even the advanced moves on every exercise but 1.  Actually, I did the advanced move on it but I won’t do it again b/c it caused me to rest nearly all of my weight on my bad shoulder and now I’m feeling it.  It’s nice b/c it feels less intense than most of the workouts I do but I know it still kicked my butt.  Plus, I know from when I did pilates on a regular basis before that it does amazing things for your body.

I had a revelation regarding my concerns about losing my mojo.  This morning Kyle decided to get up at 4:30 so I had a lot of time to think and as I had predicted yesterday, my euphoric writing stole my mojo and I was feeling defeated, realizing how far I have to go.  The weekend is coming up which is always a difficult time for me to stick with a program and I was ready to slack off a bit.  Then I realized, like everything else, that keeping my mojo is up to me (just like my title).  If I want to stay motivated then I need to do things that keep me motivated.  So I logged on and read a few blogs and instead of watching our local news coverage of the devastation the floods created which would make me depressed, I found fitness infomercials to keep me going.  Now I have gotten in week 1 day 5 of my walking program and did yoga/pilates.  Later today I’m going to go to the pool and either lounge or do water walking, I haven’t decided.  But in my pool bag are books about staying motivated.  I can do this, I just need to decide to do it.