Not the right time or an excuse???
I’m really struggling right now and not winning the battle. I just slammed a yummy burger from Culver’s and a ton of fries. Lately I have just really been struggling with food. It has been a very rough week at school. It’s a long story but a student made a specific death threat against me and another student last week out of anger and today she brought a knife to school. I still truly don’t feel that I was ever in any danger but it’s something I never expected to be facing. It’s just sad that kids who are 14 years old are that angry and that emotionally messed up. Anyway, I think it’s finally hitting me and adding to it the fact that we have just a few days of school left (translation…kids and teachers are freakin’ nuts) I’m ready to be done.
We also have another graduation party this weekend and we just had my son fitted for a wheelchair today. I know we need to do it but it’s one more step toward acknowledging that he’s sick and not going to get better. I guess I have just been pretending he’s just a baby these past years because it’s like having a permanent 3 month old.
So even though I know that it’s legit if I’m not focused on my diet right now I’m worried that I’m using this stuff as an excuse. Starting next Thursday I’m off and plan to honestly spend 1 1/2-2 hours every day working out. I know I will make a lot of progress at that point but I don’t want to put on 5-8 pounds this week (that’s not out of the question) if I take a break. I would love to say that I could just eat things in moderation but if I could do that I wouldn’t be trying to lose over 100 pounds.
So I don’t know what I’m going to do. Luckily I like fruits/veggies so I’ll try to eat those as well as turkey sandwiches, cottage cheese, yogurt, etc. I’ll try that for a day or 2 and see how that goes.
Life can be so over-full sometimes, feels like you’re just treading water. But, hey, treading is better than drowning! So, yay, success! Just take it a day at a time and do as much as you can do.
I can sympathasize with that “ready to be done with school already” feeling! Holy cow, those last couple of weeks seem endless, but then I’ve never had a death threat accompany the end of the semester. Please stay safe!
I’m so sorry about your son & I can’t begin to imagine what you’re life is like, but I know that he’s lucky to have such a caring and giving mom. I’m not religious, but I think life hands us only as much as we’re capable of handling…& clearly you’re capable of handling quite a lot of life.
Hang in there!
Wow, that’s some stress you’re having to deal with! No wonder you’re struggling with food. Part of you knows that “bad” food isn’t going to solve anything, you just need to empower that part of you to make the meal decisions! Hang in there, it sounds like you have a plan, you can get there! One day at a time!