Why do I do this to myself?
I got on the scale this morning and it still said 263. Why do I do this to myself? I debated on it for a while because I knew that since I was going to be home today that if I got a bad result that it would set me up for a bad day. And I have been basically perfect all week in my eating so I figured for sure I would be down a pound or 2. But nothing. Zilch. Nada. I know that by this weekend I should have a different result but I’m still pissed.
The good news is I haven’t let it throw me too far off. I did scrounge around looking for something to eat after I watched the episode of “Desperate Housewives” that I taped from Sunday. They had a huge piece of chocolate cake (I don’t even like chocolate cake) and I think in that moment I would have given my right arm for a piece. But we don’t have anything so I ate a granola bar. Crappy substitute but it got me through.
The best news, though, is that the program to send a nurse to our house to take care of Kyle is going to happen. Assuming the hire the nurse on Monday she will start next Thursday. And she will continue to come over the summer even though I’m not working during that time. It will allow me to hang out with our older son or even take some time for myself. For the first time since Kyle got sick I feel like our life is kind of going to be somewhat normal.
Don’t let it get you frustrated - you to the positives, you did not gain and you ate healthy - the weight will come off. You have to focus on what you can control and just wait for the scale to catch up to your great work
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