Divine intervention
I made a huge mistake yesterday and allowed myself to become really hungry. I stayed late at school to get some work done and because my SIL needed to borrow our van so I missed my workout and didn’t have an afternoon snack. When I got home I was starving. I fed the baby and then had an early supper (hubby had night class and my MIL had my older son). When my son got home he wanted a snack so we shared an apple. I always get nervous eating fruit because the carbs make me crave more but I know it is a healthy food and I love apples. When he went to bed I was hungry again, I’m sure because I ate supper at 4:30. I was washing another apple when the baby started crying. He never actually cries so I ran to see what was wrong. Then as I was feeding him my hubby got home early from night class. By then I realized that I wasn’t as hungry as I thought so I avoided the snack all together.
I realize having another apple would not have been a big deal but I know I have to be careful since I’m going to be avoiding the scale for a while. An apple here (and I know I would have eaten it w/a little bit of peanut butter), an extra cheese stick there and I’m adding a couple hundred extra calories a day.
Also, I took a pregnancy test this morning and it was negative. I’m not late yet but it was one of those that you can take 5 days before you are. These are the ones I used with both of the boys and they showed pregnancy immediately. I’m still going to act as if I’m pregnant until I get my period but it takes a little bit of stress off. I really started getting worried yesterday because my boobs started to hurt and that was always the 1st sign that I noticed with the boys, but I’m guessing I’m just PMSing and more aware of it. Even though I would love to have another child I’m relieved that I’m most likely not pregnant. We can’t afford another child right now, hubby still has another year of school left. And then there’s the worry that this child would be sick, too. There would be a 1 in 4 chance that any new baby would have my son’s disease. I know that means there would be a 3 in 4 chance that it would be healthy, but I would be a nervous wreck until the test could be done to see if it is healthy.
Today I’m going to miss my workout again b/c I’m training my new sitter on how to take care of Kyle. But I’ll get to workout tomorrow when I normally don’t so it all evens out.