Tired
Tired says it all. I’m physically tired because we haven’t been sleeping well and even when I have a chance to sleep I’m finding I can’t turn off my brain enough to let me do it. I’m emotionally tired because it seems that every time we turn around there is another fire to put out. And I’m also tired of being diligent with my diet and exercise and not seeing it pay off. It’s gut check time. Even though I’m frustrated I’m trying to look at it as an opportunity to demonstrate my mental toughness. I’m going to stick with it no matter what and if I would slip I will get right back up again. Even though I’m losing so slowly I’m still losing and becoming healthier.
I do think, though, that I need to schedule a visit with my therapist. I’m considering asking him about anti-depressants. I’m not against them but in all honesty my biggest concern is weight gain. My friends who have taken them have all gained weight which I know would make me more depressed. Has anyone taken them and not had this side effect? If so, what drug were you on? The reason I finally think I need them is the whole not being able to sleep-thing. Last night it was my hubby’s night to get up with Kyle and he woke me up about 2:00 because he thought Kyle’s breathing was irregular. I was only up for about 15 minutes but I didn’t get back to sleep until at least 4:30 (we get up at 5:15). I have never had problems sleeping before my son became ill so there is no way I can explain it other than I think I am depressed.
Now that I have acknowledged this I feel better because I have a plan. I am very upfront with my therapist about my weight concerns so he will not put me on a drug that has weight-gain as a side effect. I’m just hoping I can get in fairly soon to see him.
BTW–I caved and weighed myself today and I’m back down to 273, so that’s 1 pound since Monday. I think God realized that I needed some encouragement this morning.
You are tough! You can do it! You already ARE doing it. =D
Interesting question about the antidepressant & weight gain. I had a friend who gained a lot of weight on Zoloft. I was on Prozac for many years and didn’t gain any.
From Mayo Clinic website: “…tricyclic antidepressants and monoamine oxidase inhibitors (MAOIs) are more likely to be associated with weight gain than are selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs). The exception to this may be long-term use of paroxetine (Paxil) — an SSRI that is more likely to cause weight gain than are other SSRIs.”
The site also said that the weight gain might not be directly related to the drug itself, but just that your appetite might improve when you aren’t depressed, and conversely, you might lose weight because you are no longer depressed.