Proud of myself
I decided to be a grown-up last night and get over my crankiness. I was able to get in a great workout which helped matters. Part of what helped was that I watched my new favorite show, “X Weighted” while I was on the treadmill. Yesterday’s episode focused on a woman who had very low self-esteem and was negative about everything. She saw a woman who told her being unhappy was her choice and if she wanted to be happy then she had to choose to be happy. Gee, was this a message to me?
But I didn’t want to let my hurt feelings about not working out on Saturday and my hubby’s ignoring my anger go away. So while we were making supper I asked him why he didn’t ask my that I was upset. At first he acted like he didn’t know what I was talking about but then he said that he figured it was just that I was tired of all of the chaos in our life. I said that yes, I am, but explained that I was upset that I wasn’t able to workout on Saturday after I specifically said I needed a workout. He said “All you had to do was ask” to which I replied “I did.” I also told him that I guess I didn’t want to have to ask again, I wanted him to realize how important this is to me and tell me it’s ok to take time for myself. Our younger son was being difficult all weekend so I didn’t want to leave him alone with him, those guilty feelings again.
Today hopefully should be ok. We’re getting out of school early because a blizzard is heading our way but since we live in town I’m still going to try to workout before I pick up the kids. I won’t jeapordize our safety but I think I should be ok.
Hi! Men are not intuitive. My husband is a man I consider a FANTASTIC catch - and he is still clueless about my moods. Best thing you can do is focus on a positive for you. Even if things didn’t work out as planned - feel good about other things (like being a great mom and being there for your son & baby). I have 3 kids - there isn’t alot of “me” time - but I’m learning that’s why I had kids and a husband - I didn’t want life with just me! Glad to hear you’re over it! Hopefully today will be better for you! DeeH
I hope you get a chance to get your workout in today. I hate when I have to ask DH more than once for something. It makes me feel like I’m nagging so more often than not I do what you did and just get mad at him. I’m glad you were able to talk it out with him.
Good for you for being honest about your feelings. I know how hard that is. You are allowed to ask for what you need. You MUST ask for what you need. Advocate for yourself in the same way you would for one of your children. You’re WORTH IT.