Being smart and still making stupid choices
When I was younger I always remember my dad saying something like “And you’re the smart one in the family” whenever I did something stupid. I always did well in school and do consider myself to be a smart person. But sometimes, even with all of the brains in the world, we make stupid choices.
This is the biggest frustration I have with my weight. I am smart and I know exactly what I need to do to lose weight and be healthy. But I choose the wrong path. Not always…to be honest, not even very often. But when I do make the “stupid” choice I really beat myself up about it.
You might be wondering what got me started on this tirade. Looking back over the last few days the only really “stupid” choice I made was getting on the scale at 3:30 pm. I know, I had my hubby hide the scale, but I knew where it was and for some reason I thought I would be happy with what it would say. Last Monday am I was 278.0 and yesterday afternoon I was 279.5. Have I gained??? Probably not, it’s just the fact that it was afternoon instead of morning and I was clothed. But instantly I wanted to throw in the towel and eat, EXACTLY THE REASON I HAVE MY HUBBY HIDE THE SCALE. I was wise enough to realize this was foolish so I allowed myself to eat but it had to be SBD friendly food.
But the thing that has really got me beating myself up is I have finally realized that this has to be a lifetime change for me, not something I do for a while. Again, I have always known this in my mind but for some reason it hasn’t sunk in until now. And I also know that I feel 100 times better when I eat healthy foods and exercise, but sometimes the taste of a chewy cookie is worth feeling crappy later.
I’m hoping when I have a chance to get back on track with my exercise later today that things will improve. I haven’t worked out since Tuesday and I have really missed it. My hubby and oldest son are going to get groceries right now but when they get back I get my hour to workout. Tomorrow is my weigh-in day so I know I’ll be on track for today.
I think all of us can relate to this! We do make stupid choices, but we can learn to make better ones. I’ve had many similar battles with the scale — and finally decided to throw it out. Of course it will be different morning to night, and depending what clothes you’re wearing, or not, or what you’ve eaten and when. And it will vary day to day even if you’re perfect. I was “perfect” last week on Weight Watchers …. AND GAINED A POUND. In my stupid days that would have been reason enough to say “This doesn’t work” and call out for pizza. But I’ll bet you if I’m “perfect” next week, the scale will be back down. Hang in there, and good luck!