It’s all up to me

I still am not back on my program.  I have the best of intentions (don’t we all) but when it comes to putting it into action I am not following through.  I am trying to figure out how I can fit everything into my life that needs to be accomplished.  I know that I need to schedule workouts like any other appointment but I real life often intervenes.  Two weeks ago life seemed to be calming down and I would have been able to begin exercising after school like we had planned and then my husband got gout.  He could barely walk, let alone pick up the kids after school, so that fell to me.  He still isn’t 100% back to normal but he’s getting to the point that he can watch the kids for a little while.  And I know some people may be thinking that he’s faking it to sabotage me but he truly is in a ton of pain. 

Today our son had surgery again and hopefully this will be the end of things for a while.  I think that next week things will maybe get back to normal.  I’m finally feeling caught up at school after being gone for a week with Kyle’s last surgery so I feel ok leaving right after school to exercise instead of staying after for that 1-2 hours to prepare for class.  And although some people might think that I should just leave the work for tomorrow, I can’t do that.  My job has been so flexible with me being gone with our son that I feel I owe them to get caught up ASAP.  Plus, my husband is a full-time student so I am our sole source of income.  If something would happen with my job we would be in huge trouble.

So at this point I’m still floundering.  I’m hopeful that fairly soon I will be able to shake off a few of these things that are really stressing me out.  I also have an appt. scheduled with my therapist for next week which is long overdue.  All I know is that I have to do something.