Afraid to not exercise
I think I am becoming compulsive about exercise. I have always enjoyed being active (I know I am lucky in that respect) so working out is not a chore to me but something I get to do. Plus, it is one of the few times in my day that I get to be by myself without anyone demanding anything from me. Typically, though, I take Sundays off. This morning, however, I felt driven to workout. Basically, I was afraid that if I didn’t do something that I would have a hard time sticking to my eating plan. This is a realistic fear because it has happened in the past.
Maybe I’m replacing one obsession (food) with another (exercise). I know it is a better compulsion to have but I also realize that it isn’t good for me to feel like I can’t miss a day OR that I can’t control myself if I do miss a day. This is something I will need to work on.
On a great note I’m down to 282.5. This is great because yesterday morning I was at 285. I know I didn’t lose 2.5 pounds in one day and this confirms to me that I should only weigh myself once a week. I’m going to move my scale out of the bathroom today so it’s not so handy and set a goal to only weigh myself on Sundays. Eventually I would like to get to a point where I am only weighing myself 1 or 2 times a month but for now I’m going to conquer only checking once a week.