It’s all up to me

I weighed in this morning and lost 4.5 pounds last week, pretty good considering I did not stick to my eating plan very well.  For some reason I am bored with the options on South Beach this time.  I also noticed I have the hardest time with my eating on the days I am home with my kids.  Part of it is the stress of having 2 little ones at home, one of whom is disabled, but mostly I figured out is because I cannot stay as busy when I am taking care of them.  Of course I’m busy when I’m taking care of them but it’s a different kind of busy.  The other night Kyle took a long nap and Justin was with grandma so I was able to sort through clothes for a garage sale.  Before I knew it 3 hours had gone by and I hadn’t even thought about eating.  I wasn’t bored so I didn’t want to eat.

So here’s my stats.  When I started last week I weighed 295 and this morning I was at 290.5.  I think I am just going to have to realize that it isn’t going to happen as quickly as I wanted but as long as I keep on the plan it WILL happen.  I have added incentive because we are considering having a 3rd child in the future but I will not allow myself to be pregnant unless I am under 200 (we are also considering adoption so not losing weight will not prohibit us from adding to our family).  If I’m having trouble losing weight now I cannot imagine how difficult it would be with 3 kids and added pregnancy weight.

So my refined goals will be to lose 2 pounds a week.  Ultimately I would like to be around 150 but since I have never been thin I don’t really know what weight I should be.  I’m 5′7″ and have always been athletic so I’m guessing I can carry a bit more weight and still be thin due to muscle mass.  I guess I really don’t care what I weigh as long as I am healthy and hopefully a size 6/8.  Right now I am a tight 24.

Thanks for listening,

Brandie