Breathing Space

So something really interesting happened the other day. It was my 1 year anniversary with my boyfriend and to celebrate we had an indoor picnic complete with 7-layer dip, tostitos, wine, and cupcakes. All of these items I would normally never eat, or eat in moderation. But for some reason my brain flew out the window and I ended up eating 6 mini cupcakes, 1/2 the bag of tostitos, and at least 4 tbsp of dip. I still cannot believe it. The entire time I was thinking to myself… why am I doing this?! I was not stressed, or eating from any kind of negative emotion. Then the next day I woke up to go for a 4.5km run…. it was like the entire night never happened. Is this normal?!?! Then the next day I had cake with my lunch and supper… another bad move, but I accounted it up to just a “special treat”. To make matters worse… the following day was our house warming bbq in which I ate 2 bowls of munchies mix! What an awful weekend. The odd part is that the entire time I was extremely conscious of the point values of the food, and was allowing myself to indulge because it was a “special event”. This kind of thinking gets me into alot of trouble with food. Yesterday I was back on track and today is okay… not amazing but okay. I am at 26 points today. I just feel like I lost my mind or something. Next weekend is thanksgiving at the pseudo in-laws… I know I need to be healthy about it but it is HARD. I don’t care what people say… one piece of pumpkin pie is never enough, and mashed potatoes at thanksgiving require gravy.

So I am basically looking for advice as to whether a horrible 3-day splurge is occasionally forgivable, or if I just totally blew it.

Posted on October 6th, 2008 by breathingspace
Filed under: Ramblings