Okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Getting back on track today. I’m going to limit carbs in a Phase 1 fashion.
FOOD:
bfast — 2 eggs, 3 small Gimme Leans, coffee w/ 1% milk
lunch — LFLC, slice of veggie quiche
dinner — broiled tilapia, greens with onions, broiled fennel
snack– lean roast beef
EXERCISE:
20 mins bike
25 mins treadmill
15 mins elliptical
WATER:
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
FOOD:
bfast — 5 slices of apple/pear, small bowl of steel cut oats w/ yogurt, coffee w/ 1% milk
lunch — cup of tomato basil soup, half a turkey reuben
dinner — slice of quiche
snack– slice of veggie quiche, LFLC, almonds
EXERCISE:
WATER:
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
Feeling better today. Think I’ll hit the gym this a.m. I feel like a lazy troll.
FOOD:
bfast — 2 eggs, 3 Gimme Leans, Genesis toast w/ Smart Balance
lunch — a serving of lean roast beef, slice of Genesis toast
dinner — broiled tilapia, side of spinach sauteed w/ onions
snack–pnb, LFLC, half a peanut butter and jelly sandwich
EXERCISE:
30 mins bike
25 mins treadmill
WATER:
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
Meh. Sick. And eating TERRIBLY.
FOOD:
bfast — 1.5 pieces of toast w/ Smart Balance
lunch — 1/4 cup of organic cereal, half an orange
dinner — 1.5 eggs, Gimme Lean, spinach
snack– 2 LF Fig Newmans =/, small bowl of Greek yogurt w/ walnuts & agave nectar, 1/3 sandwich w/ basil, mozz, tomatoes
EXERCISE:
WATER:
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
Meh.
Sick today.
FOOD:
bfast — 2 eggs, 3 Gimme Leans, 1/2 slice of Genesis toast w/ 1 tbl Smart Balance
lunch — 2 slices toast, bowl of vegetable broth
dinner — potato/kielbasa/kale casserole
snack–
EXERCISE:
Does throwing up count?
WATER:
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
I didn’t do well at the Y yesterday — I was having belly troubles. =/ I’m planning on going to the Y this morning after DD wakes up.
FOOD:
bfast — 2 eggs, 3 gimme leans, piece of Ezekiel toast w/ Smart Balance lite
lunch — yummy beet soup
dinner — 2 salad plates at Sweet Tomatoes, bowl of lentil soup
snack– can of tuna w/ onions & 2 tbl olive oil LF mayo
EXERCISE:
WATP Walk and jog, 15 mins
WATER:
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
I’m excited to be at 275. I weighed 275 at my ob/gyn’s two weeks after I delivered DD. I was 250-260 when I got pregnant with her, if I remember correctly. Today I’m going to have a higher calorie day. I think I’ll cycle two higher calorie days each week. One right after weigh in, then one later on in the week.
FOOD:
bfast — 2 eggs, 3 Gimme Leans
lunch — 2 bowls of salad, w/ tuna w/ onions and mayo, walnuts & balsamic vin dressing
dinner — salmon, quinoa w/ cabbage
snack– almonds, trail mix =/
EXERCISE:
30 mins bike
15 mins treadmill
WATER:
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
Woohoo!!!
This week: 275
Last week: 280
I made my first goal! Which was 50 pounds lost. Woohoo!!!!
I feel like a bum for not exercising yesterday, and then for overeating!
Bleh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today I’m going to hit the Y.
FOOD:
bfast — 2 eggs, 3 med sized Gimme Leans, coffee w/ FF half and half
lunch — 2 LFLC, 4 slices lowfat turkey
dinner — broiled salmon w/ salad w/ walnuts and LF balsamic dressing
snack– handful of trail mix, almonds, small bowl of Greek yogurt w/ 5 strawberries and walnuts
EXERCISE:
30 mins bike
10 mins elliptical, lol
30 mins treadmill
WATER:
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
I’m definitely on a fish kick right now. I’ve been feeling the desire to eat more protein because I’ve been craving meat. So I bought some tilapia filets. They’re pretty yummy, actually. I just broil it with a slice of lemon, some pepper, salt, and paprika.
FOOD:
bfast — 2 eggs, 4 Gimme Leans, coffee w/ FF .5n.5
lunch — broiled tilapia w/ greens & mushrooms
dinner — 3/4 Greek salad w/ blackened salmon
snack– med latte w/ skim milk, more greens & mushrooms
EXERCISE:
WATER:
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
I’m having a good day today. I’m having the weirdest mood changes. I did a Leslie video, only two miles, because I knew I’d be going to the Y later so I didn’t want to burn out.
I’m irritated with the U.S. media hyping this ridiculous story about the “pregnant man.” It’s offensive how they’re using the “pregnant man” phrase to stir up a frenzy and shock people into thinking he’s a bio male just to sell ads.
Especially when people are so obviously threatened by transgendered people, that they react violently. Honestly, I just hope people leave them alone and no one hurts him or his family. I have absolutely no faith in this country.
9:15 edit: So weird. I had 1300 calories today and yesterday! Maybe I just estimate equally poorly.
FOOD:
bfast — 1/4 c. steel cut oats (made with water, 1% milk & Greek yogurt), 5 strawberries (250/250)
lunch — leftover steak salad from last night, two slices of pastrami, more lettuce & bals vinegar dressing (300/550)
dinner — broiled tilapia, sauteed spinach (325/1300)
snack– tuna noodle casserole (175/725)
lettuce leaves w/ dressing, beans, lean pastrami (250/975)
LFLC (35/1335)
EXERCISE:
2 miles, WATP
20 mins bike
20 mins treadmill
10 mins elliptical
WATER:
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
I’m going to try calorie counting.
FOOD:
bfast — 2 eggs, 3 small Gimme Leans, small bowl of Greek yogurt w/ 5 strawberries (280/280)
lunch — tuna-shirataki casserole (210/490)
dinner — salad w/ steak & black beans at Freebirds (estimating 550/1300)
snack– homemade cole slaw (140/630)
small bowl of Greek yogurt, 5 strawberries (120/750)
EXERCISE:
30 mins treadmill
10 mins bike
WATER:
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
My neck hurts less than it did yesterday, so I’m going to go ahead and work out today.
7:45 edit: We ended up going back to the Y when DH got home. So I did double the workout today.
FOOD:
bfast — 2 eggs, 3 small Gimme Leans, coffee w/ 1% milk
lunch — small bowl of tuna-shirataki casserole, 3 lettuce wraps w/ slice of turkey, beans, mayo & balsamic vinegar dressing dinner — 3 lettuce wraps w/ slice of turkey, beans, mayo & balsamic vinegar dressing
snack– 3 strawberries
EXERCISE:
22 mins, exercise bike, alpine hill, level 8
20 mins treadmill, 3.4 mph, .5 incline
20 mins, exercise bike, random hill, level 8
25 mins treadmill, 3.2-3.6 mph, 1.0 incline
swimming
WATER:
Tons
BODY IMAGE:
I am really feeling yucky today. I felt gross when I went to the Y in the morning, because I was wearing a t-shirt and sweats and looked like a fat lazy person instead of a healthy exercisin’ person. Also, when I was on the bike, there was an older woman with an efficient hair cut wearing some kind of weird athletic fabric tailored shirt who walked past me twice and gave me an up-and-down look. It made me uncomfortable and self conscious. Even though I doubt she was really staring. Or maybe she was. Even if she was, I probably wouldn’t give a shit. But it just made me slightly uncomfortable. I need to find nice exercise clothing. =/ AND OF COURSE THEY DON’T MAKE DECENT EXERCISE CLOTHING FOR FAT PEOPLE.
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
I was tired this morning so I didn’t get up early to shower and go to the Y. I think we’ll go this afternoon. I didn’t sleep very well. We need to have the a/c on because it’s uncomfortably warm, and our bedroom is probably 5 degrees warmer than the rest of the apt. I think that attributed to the problem. We also still have our warm duvets on. I need to go to Ikea and pick up a cooler version.
I need to clean the apt. If I was motivated, I’d be doing that right now. But I’m not. And the apt is nast. I seriouslyyy need to mop the kitchen floor. I used to keep everything pristine, but then DD reached a certain age where cleaning up after her and DH became too demoralizing. MUST. COMMIT. TO. CLEANING.
Last night I was freaking about finding DD a preschool. And then I started looking up area kindergardens, and then I started looking at all the magnet schools and started freaking out because the process starts this fall and I have no idea how any of them are. And then I was looking over the applications and was like, “Sheesh, you have to be FIVE to go to kindergarden???” and then since DD is only 3, it’s two more years away, so I stopped freaking out.
I wish we had a circus school nearby so she could take baby tumbling classes. Maybe the Y’s classes won’t be as creepy as the other places we’ve taken her. (I don’t know if it’s just Texas, but holy cow, a toddler gymnastics class is just a JonBenet training ground. Shiver.)
I just ate half a piece of toast and wasn’t planning on it. =/
Meh.
Damn you, happiness! My hubris from yesterday is catching up.
Hahaha, I just started singing the Happiness song from the movie. DD is sitting next to me, immersed in her books, and she looked up and said, “Mommy, no more singing. Okay? No more singing. Thank youuuuuuuuuuuu.”
Oh well. I love Todd Solondz.
FOOD:
bfast — 2 eggs, 3 small Gimme Leans, coffee w/ FF half and half, 2 strawberries
lunch — bowl of lentil soup, bowl of cole slaw
dinner — slice of veggie & tuna casserole
snack–half a slice of toast w/ Smart Balance light, bowl of cole slaw (w/ light mayo, balsamic vinegar), another bowl of cole slaw
EXERCISE:
WATER:
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
These past few months, I’ve been so happy. I’m trying to figure out what happened. I’ve lived the past 20 years as a miserable and emo curmudgeon, and now I’ve had more moments of loopy happiness, that keeps building and building and building, than I’ve had my whole life. I even freakin’ joined the freakin’ YMCA, people. I was even excited when I drove into the parking lot of the Y this morning and couldn’t find a spot because it was filled with cars, and there were mothers with children and old people everywhere. (I think those are the people who use the Y during the day.) AND I AM USUALLY TERRIFIED OF PEOPLE!
But it’s phenomenal that I exercise almost every day. And now, in public. That is a huge NSV for me. I think I’ve finally killed the “fitness” mindset that got programmed into me in high school. Which is that it was basically cool to be miserable while exercising, that you should make up every excuse not to do it, and never let anyone see you sweat.
And then the mindset that developed through adulthood: that you can only be fit if you have a certain (skinny) body. That you’re not fit if you can’t keep up with the tiny aerobics instructor. Screw that. Your level is fitness is relative to what your body could do a month ago. That is the standard you should measure from, not what you think you should be doing.
Today, I’m on a high. I can fit into the pants I wore when I met DH. They’re a little tight, but I can zip them up easily. I don’t remember the last time I could do that. I know that I won’t feel this elation tomorrow, or next week. I know that visiting my family in a couple weeks will probably be difficult and turn me back into Emo Mommy, because they always, always have a way of doing that.
But I am recording this moment for posterity to look back on when I next lose momentum.
I apologize for my crazy writing style. My best friend used to say I write like Yoda. My use of commas drove her nutty. I’m generally not apologetic for my grammar on daily posts, but on pure prose, I feel a tad guilty.
I’m planning on going to the Y today early, before lunch. So I’m up and showered all ready.
FOOD:
bfast — 1.5 eggs, 3 medium sized Gimme Leans, slice of Genesis bread w/ Smart Balance, small bowl of Greek yogurt with strawberries (DD ate most of it, tho, lol)
lunch — openfaced sandwich w/ turkey & cheese
dinner — large bowl of lentil soup, w/ dollop of yogurt
snack– 3 30cal turkey slices, LFLC
EXERCISE:
20 mins bike, alpine hill mode level 10
treadmill, 20 mins, about 3.2 mph, 1.0-1.5 incline
WATER:
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
Today we’re going to the Y to work out, maybe play some racquetball.
FOOD:
bfast — Genesis toast w/ Smart Balance, 2 eggs, 2 Gimme Leans, coffee w/ FF half-n-half
lunch — tomato with LFLC, 2 slices deli ham
dinner — the most delicious tandoori chicken tikka on the planet, with sauces, and about 3 bites of naan
snack– 4 devilled egg halves
EXERCISE:
15 min bike
15 min treadmill
30 mins racquetball (tho I would barely count this as exercise because I was kinda dragging)
WATER:
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
I woke up soooooooooo thirsty today. I may have overdone it with the exercise yesterday. Last night I had trouble getting to sleep because my abs hurt. I’m kind of stiff and achey today. I think I’ll go light on the exercise. Probably no Y today because DH has to work =/ and their babysitting service ends at 1 pm on Saturdays. Maybe we’ll just go to the pool.
DH has his gigantic deadline coming up at the end of the month. He worked til about 2 am last night, and is back again today. I hope he’ll be able to fly to my brother’s wedding with us. =/
FOOD:
bfast — Genesis toast w/ Smart Balance, 2 eggs, 3 medium sized Gimme Leans, coffee w/ FF half and half
lunch — salad w/ leftover beans from last night, tomato, lettuce, and olive oil mayo
dinner — 2 LF Hebrew Nationals, eggplant w/ tomato sauce, ricotta
snack– small dish of ricotta
EXERCISE:
WATER:
TONS. I’ve had about 50 oz so far. lol
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
All right, I forced myself to have a good day today. I am a good mood. My grandma’s doing relatively okay. I did some excellent exercise this morning, then DD & I went to the YMCA down the street and became members. It’s a great facility. There’s a water park/outdoor recreational pool with giant water slides and stuff. A ton of fitness rooms. Free babysitting (YAY!). Parents Night Out. Indoor track. Racquetball courts. Indoor lap pool. I expect we’ll take full advantage of it. I signed up to meet with a fitness trainer person. Oy!
It wasn’t nearly as expensive as I anticipated. I’m thinking DH & I will have fun working out together. Yay! We’re always so bored. There’s really not much to do nearby. We go to the mall. Blah. We go to the park all the time, which is fun, but once the heat and humidity comes around, no one’s going to the park.
8 pm edit: Yayyyy! We went to the Y tonight. DH is anticipating using our membership a lot. DD had a great time. Is it horrible that we are both dying for a break from her? I feel terrible on one hand. But considering we had to pull her away kicking and screaming from the playroom, I don’t feel so bad. We went on the stationary bikes for about 15 minutes, went walking around the track, and the puttered around a racquetball court for about 20 minutes. I built up a good sweat! DH & I are embarrassingly shy, so we were really hesitant about what to do. Part of that is also just the newness of it.
FOOD:
bfast — 1 egg, 3 Gimme Lean patties, coffee w/ FF half-n-half
lunch — 2 LF cheese sticks, 3 slices of ham wrapped in lettuce
dinner — salad w/ beans, tomatoes, onions, avocado
snack– slice of Genesis bread w/ LF olive oil mayo, lettuce, 2 slices ham & tomato slices; leftover salad from dinner; 3 small slices of chicken; hardboiled egg; cheese stick
EXERCISE:
Wahhhh! WATP Walk and Jog, yayyy
15 mins stationary bike, 10 min walking, 20 mins racquetball
WATER:
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MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
I hope today will be less crappy than yesterday. We will see.
And Genesis is an organic, flourless sprouted grain bread made by the same company that makes Ezekiel bread. It’s 80 calories a slice, 3 gm fiber. It’s kind of hard, but very satisfying and chewy. For some reason, it’s found in the freezer section. It’s a very healthy, natural bread. And like there are Biblical quotes on it. I don’t know why so many organic products have crazy religious rantings on the side, but what the heck.
FOOD:
bfast — hardboiled egg, slice of Genesis toast w/ Smart Balance, coffee w/ 2% milk
lunch — 1/4 mesquite chicken salad at Chili’s
dinner — broiled salmon, kale w/ onions
snack– 4 strawberries, Genesis toast /w pb
EXERCISE:
2.5 mile WATP, Weight Loss walk
WATER:
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
FOOD:
bfast — 2 eggs, 2 gimme leans, coffee w/ 2% milk
lunch — peanut butter =(
dinner — pot roast w/ vegetables
snack– hot dog, bowl of 2% Greek yogurt w/ walnuts and agave, 1/2 slice of Genesis bread
EXERCISE:
2 miles WATP
WATER:
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
Wah wah wah. I’m tired. DD & I woke up at 11. 11!!!!!!!!!! She woke up in the middle of the night and started crying, so I went in with her, but it took her a while to settle down, but overall we slept better than we usually do when we’re in the same bed.
Today will probably be a blissfully easy day. I’m a little sore from yesterday’s strength & sculpt. Not sure what exercise I will do today.
FOOD:
bfast — 2 eggs, 3 small Gimme Leans, half a slice of Genesis toast w/Smart Balance, coffee w/ 2% milk
lunch — piece of eggplant lasagna stuff (yea, I’m really milking leftovers!)
dinner — one big salad, bowl of chili
snack– two spoons of peanut butter, 2 LF Hebrew Nationals, 2 spoons PB again
EXERCISE:
Swimming =/ (my legs were sore)
WATER:
60 oz
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
1 hr
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
I was just thinking. I’ve lost 42 pounds give or take, and my DD weighs 37. That’s kind of insane to think about.
And then I think, “Woohoo, I lost 42 pounds! AND I’M STILL MORBIDLY OBESE! YAYYYYYYY!”
Ok I’m surprised that the scale moved a lot. Maybe because I haven’t been snacking as much as usual (thank you, meditation tapes!), drinking wayyyy more water than usual, and I’ve exercised almost every day for the past two weeks and kicked it up to about 45 minutes a day instead of a half hour. =/ I SWEAR I’M DOING NOTHING UNHEALTHY!!!!! When I went on the scale yesterday morning and it weighed 285, I thought it was an anomaly. =/
FOOD:
bfast — Genesis toast, 2 eggs, 3 medium sized Gimme Leans, tea
lunch — pot roast, roasted vegetables
dinner — eggplant no-noodle lasagna
snack– Greek yogurt w/ walnuts, agave nectar
EXERCISE:
Biggest Loser strength & sculpt
2 mile walk at park
WATER:
BODY IMAGE:
MEDITATION:
WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON:
