Alright… I’ve talked about this before. Why we stop doing what we know works. Why do I do that? I get a small loss and boom, I stop going to exercise, I stop drinking my water and guess what? The scale stops moving. Then I get ticked. Then I wonder why the hell I keep doing this to myself. I know what to do. What is my problem??
10 lbs from goal weight. Why am I screwing around. Basically I’m beating my head against a brick wall tonight because I’m mad at myself.
Honestly, if anyone is reading this. Please tell me. Why are you loosing weight? Really, what is the reason behind it?
I read so much about changing your lifestyle. I have. Really… I don’t think maintaining will be that hard. ::knock on wood:: I hear about being healthier, feeling better etc. Sure, I have those benefits too. I do feel better, I do feel healthier. I don’t have high blood pressure anymore. I don’t have hot flashes like I use to, I don’t have headaches like I use to. I’m tired… but thats because I keep my fool butt up until way too late every night!
Seriously though. Honestly, I am losing weight because I want to look better. Purely material wishes. For me the feeling better and being healthier bit is a side benefit. I want to look GOOD! I want to look and feel sexy. Is that bad? Is that setting myself up for failure? I look in the mirror and am amazed at what I see but I’m not there yet. I know this because I am not quite satisfied. But… what if I never am? What if I end up being one of those people who always complain about their thighs or their sides or whatever. What if I am never happy with the result? I thought of this today and it kinda freaked me out.
Lets hope this doesn’t happen! Perhaps I need to do some body image work. I need to learn to be happy with what I have. I always thought I would conquer that when I reached goal. Now I wonder if goal will be good enough.
Yes - bad day lol
Eating was great, scale is holding firm.
What is my problem? ROFL
Feel free to tell me to STFU!
I’ll end with this awesome demotivational quote and picture I found yesterday!
Posted on July 16th, 2008 by countingdown
Filed under: Weight Loss
you know what? you’re right. I want to be healthy for my kids and all, but c’mon!
My main motivation is to look better and I’m not ashamed of it. It’s a good thing the devil hasn’t offered me the choice of looking great but being unhealthy or being healthy and staying fat b/c in all honesty I can’t say what I’d choose. But the good news is, the other reasons (feeling better, more energy, being healthier, setting a good example for my kids) are still there, too. And on the days where I feel bad about my appearance, I can remember that the last time I went to the doctor that my blood pressure was 112/62 and that my son thinks it’s fun to exercise! The way I see it, who cares why you’re motivated, just be motivated!!