! trANNsformation BaBy !

It’s my day off today for all the overtime I’ve been working these past few weeks and I’m working on getting my space tidied up. I’m actually going to put the filter back into the Dyson and give it a whirl

Yes, keep up - I live a very exciting life.

I’ve been feeling rather uneasy about the stupid shit at rowing class. Ms. Crisis told me that I should quit it and spend my energies elsewhere. It’s weird how it’s a lingering kind of dread that I’ve got to go tomorrow. I am going to go though but I was proactive today and wrote to a rowing group in my area to ask if they had regular practice for a novice. But it just sucks…. I hate feeling crappy about something I enjoy… I know that shit people are in every area but it seems that I am the minority in this group and don’t think any talking will resolve this issue. Oh well…. I hope I can find something closer

Drama.

Anyhoo, I managed to call that lady we visited yesterday’s old agent and she is still in the business! She’s going to look into things for me and let me know. So it was a positive exchange and I feel much better about having some help with finding something. She said that a condo may need to be considered due to the bad neighborhoods. I am willing to consider this despite the loss of a back yard.

Meanwhile, I have been eating very very poorly. I’m feeling a bit blue and am trying not to let it get to me. I need to focus on getting back into the game and taking care of myself. I was putting away a work box from when I moved from one office to another that’s been sitting in my space since January today and saw some pictures of me at size 16 and then at size 12. As I teeter at the edge of size 14 - I realize that I’ve got to stop fucking around with this before I blow up again.

Damn. It’s always a goddamn struggle.

But I am making some great progress today on tidying up, paying some bills online and realizing that I can manage the stressors right now.

Dang - does it ever get easier?

A cup of hot tea to the rescue….