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Got off at 10:00 tonight. Nuf said.

Well I’d be amiss if I didn’t tell you that today out of nowhere on my way with Shopaholic to get our eyebrows nixed during lunch break, my fucking tire was completely flat. No wonder I did a little shimmy on the freeway! WTF? I just thought it was because I was driving too fast. So, luckily a tire place was only a block away. So they tell me that the tire needs to be replaced and the alignment is way off. So 204.00 and 4 hours later I pick up my car. I was pissed. The interesting thing is that we both jumped the bus and still managed to make it to the eyebrow appointment. Priorities ladies, priorities…

I was hella cranky today. The extra 204.00 spent, the remembering the 300.00 for the tow last Thursday - I was wonderin what I did wrong karmically to deserve this shit. Salesman skittered across my pea brain for a hot second. Make Sense -ANN - MAKE FUCKING SENSE. No, I don’t think that’s it. It’s just a few episodes of ‘SUCK’. Shit doesn’t necessarily come in 3’s and it’s not a bad luck streak. Shit happens and thank fucking goodness I have the funds to pay for it. But man, honestly I can’t afford any more…FUCK. So that’s 500.00 in unexpected fucking expenditures in the last 2 weeks. FUCK. Enough already - enough!

So near the end of a hell day right after an upsetting event - my cell phone rings. Probably LA I thought as I reached for it - but alas it’s INVESTOR. He called to tell me he got to Delaware safe and he’s super tired going to go to bed. He’s hopin tomorrow won’t be grueling because he has a particularly grueling client. I tell him he’ll have a great day! It was so cute - who does that? What a cutie. I told him I’d call him tomorrow night. I’m gonna have to pry myself out of happy hour (2.00 drink special - Wild Child celebration) and stand in the wind to call his ass. This is cool it almost feels like I could have a boyfriend. Callin to let someone know you’ve made it alright is very good - it shows attachment…. shit - work your mojo girlfriend…. I didn’t know you had any

I felt so much better after his call - the sprays of lavender water on me also chilled my shit out.

Fuck I’m tired as hell. So food. yes, food. one packed of organic no sugar added oatmeal, then I ate some scrambled eggs, 2 marinated mushrooms, 3 pieces of marinated tomato slivers, cilantro chutney (went to whole foods and got this at their salad bar). Then for lunch I ate out the middle of 2 grilled fish tacos (lots of salsa). 1/2 cup cafe au lait, 3 small nibbles of dark chocolate (throughout the day), about a cup of roast beef shavings and handful of organic cherry tomatoes. I also ate 6 oz container of greek yogurt - fat free. Oh yeah and 1/2 can of suga free energy berry drink. So I’m fucking scared about the scale tomorrow. I haven’t had MF foods in like 3 days now…. I’m doin’ a transition to low carb in prep for this trip. Yeah Yeah, let’s be real - I’m just fuckin sick of it right now and fuck it. I am not proud of the amount though. I was so stressed out today that I actually wanted to buy a pastry. I was ready to fucking crack. It was horrible.

i don’t think the 3 pieces of chocolate were necessary. That was plain gluttony. So next time only 1 piece. i ate way too much today. The oatmeal should have been it till the fish tacos. The eggs I ate all day long but that was not necessary. The greek yogurt sucked from the beginning - but I ate it out of guilt. I don’t like that brand - it was too weak. Not good food day. I anticipate tomorrow will be better….. let’s hope.

Ok, I’d better hit it it’s already 11:43 and I’ve got to cram in my work tomorrow. I’ve got a lunch appointment - wax underarms/lower legs and I want to be at the happy hour at 5pm. I don’t want to work on Friday. I’ve got a dental appointment and my big date.

I still have no itinerary and sent her an e-mail today. Tomorrow I’m gonna leave her another phone message. WTF?!!!!