! trANNsformation BaBy !

Ok, so before I get into last night (ridiculous) - I have to say that I woke my ass up at 8:00am after goin to bed a 2am to make it to that GODDAMN ballet class. I found a great parking space and even managed to get in a few minutes early. I was tired as hell but worked it anyway. Man, that ballet crap is tough. I got adjusted by the teacher, she was basically sayin that you need to hold your arms a certain way - I felt like sayin, ‘Well maybe if you slowed down a little I could concentrate on synchronizing all my appendages! FUCK!’ But hell, I’m just tryin to get by, so I just made sure my arms were up the rest of the class. Man. It’s rough when you look up and realize you still have an hour to go!

I hit the gym next and did some cardio on the elliptical thing (45min) played with the weights for a little bit and jetted outta there. THen hit up the grocery store for some green things/protein/mushrooms/canned fish. Now I’m sippin a shake (I haven’t eaten since 8:00am and the grocery store felt like SHEER TORTURE) I’ll have a soup before I hit the shower. My friend called and we’re gonna go see Evening today. We’ll go to dinner afterwards - I think I might have some protein and veggies instead of the usual salad if its available. That would be nice - actually fish would be….

Ok, now about that party last night. Same crap but in a different setting - much nicer. Last time, I neglected to mention that I met this tall guy( 6′7 ) and the little chinese dude lured me away from him so I didn’t get a chance to say goodbye or get his number. It was screwed up because the little guy grabbed me as I was leaving the dance floor with the tall one. (Believe me - this never happens to me and I was quite shocked) Anyhoo, last night tall man was there and acting very cooly towards me. Of course, I still wanted to get to know him a little (I think he’s in his late 50’s) and told him some lame excuse about last time. So he spends the rest of the night eyeballing me and even came to sit near me at the end of the night - but I guess that old man pride got in the way. Oh well. His loss. Meanwhile, I met another little chinese dude who was 46 years old and has his own business (he used to be a stockbroker) and homeboy actually thought I was too young for him. (It’s all about lighting ladies - let’s just hope my shit holds up when I see him in the light) He was a real geek, but I managed to give him my number. But I wasn’t thrilled… yeah - I keep thinkin about that cop…. But one thing is solid - that was the absolute last one that I’m going to - mark my words. I had fun with my friend but the men are just not appealing. I know I’m an ole fat lady at 40 but shit - does that mean that I’ve gotta date my father?
I had fun dancing though - that was cool. I also wore a wrap dress that I wore last year for New Years and it fit a lot better. The shoes were fitting nicely too - not painful like before! So I was happy.

Shoot - it’s ON when I lose some more of my stuffin’ man. It was a nice confidence boost though to have some geezers tryin’ to game me. TRAGIC, but nice.

I called my brother to see how he was doin’ so hopefully he’ll call me….

I had a good day today I feel better about myself and man - it really makes a difference…