I know it’s been a while since I’ve blogged. There’s actually a lot I’d like talk about but it’s extremely late and I need to get to bed. I just wanted to say that I’m just OUNCES from reaching a “major-mini” goal (at least on my home scale). This morning, I weighed in at 300.0!! That’s 46 lbs from where I started on 1/02/08. At MRC, I am down to 302.5 and only 1.5 lbs from signing the 40 lb board and 3 lbs from waving bye-bye to those UGLY 300’s forever!!!
Ok, that’s it for now. I’m beat and really do need to get to bed. I’m weighing in tomorrow so will update this weekend! 
Posted on May 15th, 2008 by angierue
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Not much of an updated, just wanted an excuse to post this picture… 
Starting weight: 341
Current Weight: 310
Total change: UP 1/2 a pound (BOOOOOOOO)
However, I got this awesome picture from when I was signing the 30 Pounds Lost board and wanted to share it.
Posted on April 29th, 2008 by angierue
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Ok, so I’m not an alcoholic or anything but I do enjoy having a drink with my friends. And because I’m not supposed to have it on this plan, I think when I break down and have a couple, I tend to binge.
Take Saturday for example. I went to visit a friend of mine in Lubbock and I told myself the whole way up there that I wasn’t going to have any alcohol. That lasted until about 2 minutes after I walked in the door. And I had beer. Probably the worst thing I can have right now. Dos Equis, Pacifico, Smithwicks. I had them all. Plus a couple of vodka sodas (which is what I should had and stuck with).
I guess the one saving grace was that I didn’t really eat off plan. I didn’t do great because it was a mom & pop Mexican food place with not a lot of healthy options but I definitely could have been worse. Thankfully they were out of queso so I at least saved myself that temptation. But I did have a couple of chips and salsa along with a tortilla. Still though, not bad overall.
I was flat this morning on my home scale and I’m hoping like crazy I see a drop tomorrow because I’m going to go weigh in at the center before my dentist appointment if I have time. If not, I’ll go after but I’d rather try to go before. I’m taking the rest of the day off so I can hopefully get some crap down around the house. I’ve been really bad lately and I’m so far behind on laundry that I just about have nothing left to wear. The bedroom, actually entire upstairs, looks like a tornado went through it. I want to get it really cleaned up along with both bathrooms.
Thankfully I have NOTHING planned this weekend as of right now so I should be able to get quite a bit done this weekend as well. I want to go through my closet and start pulling out the stuff that I know I’m never going to wear again. Either because it is (or soon will be) too big or just because I don’t much care for it anymore. I’d like to put the stuff in better shape up on eBay but it will depend on what all I have.
I guess that’s about it for now. Hopefully tomorrow will be a good day at weigh in. I’m shooting for just a pound but of course would be happy with more. I’m only 8.5 lbs from the 40 lb board (my center only has them in 10 lb increments) and I’d really like to sign it by the first part of next week. I know I can. I just need to keep my focus. I’ve been great with my food, even sat there tonight and watched my friends eat chili cheese french fries and hotdogs right in front of me. Thankfully I had eaten right before I met up with them at the bowling alley. I even passed on the $1 beers and stuck with Diet Dr. Pepper. That’s a NSV if I ever had one!
Posted on April 28th, 2008 by angierue
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Just have a minute but wanted to post a progress update…
As of 4/25/08
Starting weight - 341
Current weight - 309.5
Total lost - 31.5 (MRC)
I got to sign the 30 lb board at the center on Friday. I was so excited. For some reason, it really just hit me and I almost cried. My eyes welled up with tears and everything. I am doing this.
Posted on April 26th, 2008 by angierue
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I went to weigh in today and when I walked in, I told the girl to get the Sharpie and the camera ready because I was signing that 30 lb board! I just felt great about it and had weighed in at home that morning at 309.8, which was about 2 lbs lighter than last Thursday so I knew that board was MINE!
Heh… Yeah, not so much. Hopped on that scale and I was actually UP a pound. One stinking pound. So now I’m 1.5 pounds away from the 30 lb board and it totally defeated me. I was so pissed when I saw that number (312.5) show up. I wanted to get butt-ass naked on the scale but she said it wouldn’t be a true reading and I knew it. So then we sat down for a little one-on-one and discussed what has been going on.
Basically, since Vegas, I have been screwing around and not sticking to the program. I’ve still lost, but it’s been super slow. I should be able to lose 3-5 pounds a week.
So, here I am again… Kicking myself in the behind and trying to get back on program. I’ve done pretty well the last couple of days but I still end up screwing things up, even tonight. I wasn’t very hungry and had dozed off after work for about an hour so didn’t start to have dinner until almost 9. I wasn’t very hungry and had a meal replacement bar, which I’m not supposed to have at night. Then about 1/2 way through that, decide to go ahead and up the calories (and protein) a bit and had about 5 oz of left over turkey breast. A better option would have been cooking some veggies instead but I went for the turkey instead. While it wasn’t off plan foods, I didn’t do what I was supposed to and I know it will continue to slow down my loss.
I’ve got to get out of these habits and start doing what I’m supposed to. I want this. I do. I don’t know why I keep doing these stupid little sabotaging things to myself but I have to stop.
Tomorrow. Tomorrow is another day and I will NOT eat off plan. I will get my ass in gear and I will eat on program!!
Posted on April 23rd, 2008 by angierue
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What’s it going to take to get me out of this frame of mind where I just keep having these “little” cheats? Why is it that I can sit there, telling myself “You don’t need to be eating this” yet continue eating it? Why did I go through the drive-thru at Arby’s, fully intending on ordering my mostly on plan salad yet when I get to the speaker-box, “Chicken Bacon Club with a diet Dr. Pepper” comes out of my mouth? To my credit, at least it was grilled instead of fried and I didn’t “go large” with it.
But COME ON! WTF? I know I shouldn’t be eating these things. I am (or at least was on Friday) only .5 lbs away from getting to sign the 30 lb board! I should be losing at least 3-4 lbs a week and pretty much since Vegas, I have been averaging about 1.5 to 2, if that much.
Thankfully, my center finally started offering some classes and I was able to attend the first of twelve Behavior Modification classes. It really couldn’t have come at a better time. I’m so good at “talking the talk” but my “walking the walk” has been seriously lacking. I really hope these classes help me keep my focus because I need it right now.
I will go tomorrow and face whatever music there is to be faced. I will get back on plan. I will stop finding excuses for sabotaging myself. I will remind myself DAILY that I am worth doing this for. I deserve this and I am going to have it.
Posted on April 22nd, 2008 by angierue
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I can’t believe I have been on MRC for 10 weeks. I’m a little bummed because I haven’t lost the way I should be but still… 2.6 lbs a week is pretty good. I just wanted to be on the higher end, the 5 lbs a week end. And I probably would be if I would stop doing things to throw me off plan.
This has been hard. It started off as the easiest program I have ever done. But the last few weeks, well pretty much since Vegas, I have had the hardest time getting back on track. People are finally noticing and I just keep doing these little things to sabotage myself. While I’ve fought way more urges than I have given in to, it keeps getting harder because each slip makes me start craving those bad foods again.
I have to keep telling myself that I am worth this. I don’t want to be fat anymore. I want to shop in a regular clothing store and not have to look for the “women’s” or the “plus size” section. I want to not look around a room and find the seat that looks the most stable. I want to sit on an airplane and not worry about it being full and think the person next to me must hate me. I want to feel comfortable in anything I wear. Hell, I want to feel comfortable in my own skin!!
I am bound and determined to make my 78 lbs by August (and then push on through that and lose another 78). I want this. I deserve this. I am going to have this!
Posted on April 17th, 2008 by angierue
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Breakfast:
Caramel Nut Meal Replacement Bar
ADWL Breakfast
3 Flaxseed
2 MRC6
1 Multivitamin
Grape HNS
Lunch:
6 oz pan grilled chicken pieces
2.5 oz cooked mushrooms
3 oz raw cucumbers
Vanilla Pudding HNS Smoothie blended w/Strawberry, Pineapple, Mango and Peach
ADWL Lunch
2 Fat/Carb Blocker
2 MRC6
1 Multivitamin
Dinner:
6 oz breaded/baked turkey breast
4 oz spaghetti squash w/Parkay spray and garlic powder
ADWL Dinner
3 Flaxseed
2 MRC6
1 Multivitamin
Pineapple HNS
Snack:
Berry HNS about mid-day
Notes:
Was completely on plan today. Felt good. I just need to keep it up so I can break out of this craving mode!
Posted on April 17th, 2008 by angierue
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I think I’ve avoided doing this because I haven’t been the greatest. But it’s all about the accountability so here goes…
Breakfast:
Caramel Peanut Meal Replacement Bar
ADWL Breakfast
3 Flaxseed
2 MRC6
1 Multivitamin
(didn’t get HNS until mid-morning)
Lunch:
6oz lean sirloin steak
Green beans (probably pretty close to 4 oz)
2 large slices of cantaloupe
ADWL Lunch
2 Fat/Carb Blockers
2 MRC6
1 Multivitamin
Berry HNS
Dinner:
3 Taco Villa Tacos
ADWL Dinner
3 Flaxseed
2 MRC6
1 Multivitamin
Grape HNS
Notes:
Yes, I know I wasn’t supposed to have steak at lunch but it was a work event at a steakhouse. I probably should have picked chicken. I just hope it doesn’t turn out to have really set me back… Although it won’t set me back as bas the tacos. I fell into the classic “failing to plan is planning to fail” blunder. It was 8:15pm. I was just heading home. I was starving. I should have gone to Arby’s for the salad because even if not perfect, it would have been the better choice. Must. Stop. Sabatoge.
Posted on April 17th, 2008 by angierue
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Breakfast:
2 eggs (microwave scrambled)
1 slice 40 cal sourdough bread
ADWL Breakfast
3 Flaxseed
2 MRC6
1 Multivitamin
1 Mixed Berry HNS
Lunch:
Large Grilled Chicken Salad with extra cucumbers and light raspberry vinaigrette
ADWL Lunch
3 Flaxseed
2 MRC6
1 Multivitamin
1 Grape HNS
Dinner:
Mock Spaghetti (homemade marina sauce)
Ground Turkey (really have got to try the ground buffalo)
1 Slice 40 cal sourdough bread
ADWL Dinner
3 Flaxseed
2 MRC6
1 Multivitamin
Snack:
Diet Rite and Berry HNS blended with ice
Notes:
I was totally not happy with the dinner. I just can’t seem to get this meal right. It’s mostly the sauce. I really like my s’ghetti saucy and with 6 freakin’ oz of ground turkey and only being able to use about 2 oz of the sauce (so I can still have at least 2 oz of the spaghetti squash), it’s just not very saucy at all. Blah!
Posted on April 17th, 2008 by angierue
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