Eek! Weigh in results!
November 14th, 2008
Well, my foray back into the land of the 150s was a short trip! I weighed in yesterday at 163.4. So… I gained how much in a week? Nearly 4 lbs? Eek!
After momentarily feeling like I wanted to crack the little scale display, I decided that I cannot stress about this weight gain. Truthfully, I wasn’t expecting a major loss since it was such a big family weekend with no points-counting involved. I wasn’t expecting such a big gain, either, but what can I do about it? I can’t change what I did (biscuits and gravy, cake, calzone, brisket, cookies…) or didn’t do (exercise, count points)last week. All I can do is work toward the future. So, I’m back to counting points, and I’ve been to the gym 3 days in a row.
Perhaps the best news of this past week is that I resolved to be confident at my brother’s wedding. I was going to wear a purple and brown, long-sleeved, autumnal dress. It would have been pretty, but I would have shrunk into the background. Instead, I took a risk and wore my favorite bubble-skirt blue tank dress with a gorgeous jewel-toned turquoise jacket. Recently, since I’ve gained weight, I’ve let myself fade into the background. I don’t want people to look at me and think, “too bad, she’s not as skinny as she once was.” But, honestly, I can’t control what others say and think. What I can control is how I feel about myself.
Last weekend, I decided to feel beautiful. And, you know what? I not only felt beautiful; I also felt totally invigorated. Just the experience of feeling beautiful has given me the motivation I need to move on from my weight gain and to not lose faith as I try to lose weight. I’m actually looking forward to keep “working the plan” (as my friend in AA says), and I anticipate great results.